I LOVE to talk to the Lord!! Even when I don't know what to pray about, I don't really have anyone i can really vent to or talk to about how i really feel about everything so I just vent to Him. Tell Him how I'm feeling. ( I try not to expect "too much" out of people so I try not to tell people what I don't want the whole world to hear , if I can help it.)
Many of times, I think when I come to God with my "pity party" I think He is going to bless me with this awesome, overwhelming peace, and comfort....WRONG!!! There is a difference in wanting His promise so bad that you grieve over it , and just having a "woe me" moment. It's safe to say that God put me in my place today.
. His reply(I get this quite often):
"Do you not think I was tired when I carried the cross up the hill to be crucified for YOUR sin?! Do you not think I was tired when I was whipped and mocked by the same people I was dying for?! I created you! Lived on earth to relate to you! Died for your sin so you didn't have to! Still gave you a choice to choose me and be free, or to live in damnation! I forgive you daily and love you unconditionally! I will cover your sin at the gate so you may enter my house! I prepare a place for you in My perfect home!!! Worry should be your least!!! I make it about YOU everyday when I forgive you and wipe your slate clean, is my grace not enough for you shelbi??? YOU ARE HERE FOR ME!!!"
Ah! I hate it when He is right!(but thankful) With this truth came comfort, I opened up my bible to a random place (ever done that?) , it opened up to Matthew 13:1-43 The Parable of the sower.( Here is the whole scripture if you want to read it :biblegateway/ Matthew 13:1-43)
Jesus told the parable of a farmer planting seeds. Some were eaten by birds, Some were dried up by the sun, some were choked by thorns, and the other grew on good soil. He used this parable to describe the people.
This was the verse that hit close to home;
22 The seed falling among the thorns refers to someone who hears the word, but the worries of this life and the deceitfulness of wealth choke the word, making it unfruitful.
I worry worry worry about EVERYTHING!!! I have worried about so many things all of my life that i don't even realize it anymore. Then finally a comfort at the end for justice against the devil...
“The one who sowed the good seed is the Son of Man. 38 The field is the world, and the good seed stands for the people of the kingdom. The weeds are the people of the evil one, 39 and the enemy who sows them is the devil. The harvest is the end of the age, and the harvesters are angels.
40 “As the weeds are pulled up and burned in the fire, so it will be at the end of the age. 41 The Son of Man will send out his angels, and they will weed out of his kingdom everything that causes sin and all who do evil. 42 They will throw them into the blazing furnace, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth. 43 Then the righteous will shine like the sun in the kingdom of their Father. Whoever has ears, let them hear."
I really struggle with trusting God to mold me and i grow weary a lot because i like to take my problems back even after i say "i give it to Him". The devil knows that and he tries every opportunity that he can to take advantage of my weaknesses. It's not easy but even though we are "tired" it's not about us... it's about Him!!!! We have to keep going, He won't leave us!! He promised :
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
Deuteronomy 31:6
If you ask Him He will make you grow taller than "the weeds" and restore your soul!!
What a mighty God we serve AMEN?! Praise Him today!!! The devil has not won!!!
